First Time!

Whoo!

Do you know what I mean about first time? Actually there are two things which I'm referring to. First is...oration...and the second is declamation.... I, for God's sake, didn't think (even once) that I'm gonna do these stuffs in front of many people. Event though those people are my friends it's still...somewhat embarrassing.... But still, I think, it's good that I've experienced those stuffs even once, though I didn't do anything on the stage.lol

Okie...let's get to it. Our english teacher told us that we're gonna have an oration and declamation.....just for experience. And it was an absolute N-O to me. My reaction that time was like..."WHAT????? Even in some of our plays I feel like....embarrass or shy...and then I'm gonna orate/declaim?"...Those stuffs are really the stuffs that are in my mind. My heart began to beat faster that time. I was thinking what I'm gonna do with it. I was even thinking of not going to class during the day of the oration/declamation...but or course I can't do that. It's also an absolute N-O. I was like so crazy thinking about it. I don't know what to do. Yes it's just a simple thing, but I was already like....freaking out! In my mind, I was freaking out the whole period! This always happens whenever I'm nervous or afraid..or something like that....When our english period....my heart began to beat on it's normal way.... After sometime, I think I've learn to face the truth....that I'm gonna orate/declaim!

The next day, during our english period, Ma'am Mae (our english teacher) told us to get a small piece of paper from her hand. That paper would say if we're gonna orate or declaim. I was SUPER happy when I saw the word "oration" written on the paper that I got. Or course I'm not happy with the thing that I'll have to do this...but I'm happy because at least I don't have to act or do some crazy stuffs in front of my classmates. The next day, Ma'am Mae gave us our oratorical piece that was made by one of our schoolmates, Ms. Telmo. It's a very good piece. It's simple, but it's very good. The first time Ma'am Mae read that piece in front of the class I realized that I've forgotten all of the stuffs mentioned in the piece. We are allowed to memorize some parts of the piece only, but when I tried to read the piece with some parts missing I thought...It's not good, so I decided that time that I need to memorize the whole piece. At least, I should memorize it, because I didn't plan to deliver it with feelings in front of the class.XP

I memorized it in our house....in front of the mirror standing on a chair.LOL. And at my back are my siblings watching TV, at the same time laughing at me because that time I'm delivering it with feelings and facial expression.LOL.but of course I didn't do that in front of my classmates...I'm too shy, and also nervous...>.<

I wasn't able to memorize the last paragraph of the piece so I just continued memorizing the next day while my group mates and I were waiting for our consultant in the laboratory at UP Diliman. I guess I'm consumed a lot of times explaining other stuffs regarding this oration. Well, I think we should proceed to the day I did it. Before our english period I was sure that I memorized the whole piece, but I didn't plan to deliver it the way I delivered it in front of the mirror.LOL. So I'm not expecting to have a high rating also. Besides, that time, I thought that I might forget some lines because I was too nervous. We performed at the gym. And before performing, I was once again freaking out. Well, I didn't forget any of the lines but I didn't finish the piece because we went to the next presentor already. I was glad that our teacher called the next presentor because my heart was beating abnormally again. whew~ at last! it's done!

B-U-T

Ma'am Mae told us that those who picked oration will declaim the next week. And I was once again...SUPER freaking out! I mean...This is TOTAL embarrassment! I think my heart's gonna explode! The piece that was given to us was "The Champion". That piece is hard to declaim because there isn't only one person speaking in that piece, but TWO. I already thought that time that should not look crazy..but when it's the day that we need to declaim I was freaking out not only because of the thing that I'm gonna declame but also because of my costume. I didn't bring any demon like or Satan like costume!...wahhh....It's good that Hannah lent me her black blouse..then I wore my white skirt...It's just like I'm gonna go to a church.LOL.... I didn't wear my eye glasses when I was declaiming so I can't see anyone.LOL.That's one of the ways I thought how to reduce my tension, even a little. I can't see anyone's reaction or anything so my nervousness was reduced...but the reason why my nervousness wan't completely gone is because of the fact that I can't see them... I might have done something wrong without me noticing because I can't see their reactions...LOL...but after that I was so happy that I'm done and my heart started to beat the normal way...LOL

LOL. While typing this post....I'm feeling like...nervous. I guess I remembered the way I felt when I was declaiming and orating....that's why I felt somewhat nervous while typing...LOL