First Time!

Whoo!

Do you know what I mean about first time? Actually there are two things which I'm referring to. First is...oration...and the second is declamation.... I, for God's sake, didn't think (even once) that I'm gonna do these stuffs in front of many people. Event though those people are my friends it's still...somewhat embarrassing.... But still, I think, it's good that I've experienced those stuffs even once, though I didn't do anything on the stage.lol

Okie...let's get to it. Our english teacher told us that we're gonna have an oration and declamation.....just for experience. And it was an absolute N-O to me. My reaction that time was like..."WHAT????? Even in some of our plays I feel like....embarrass or shy...and then I'm gonna orate/declaim?"...Those stuffs are really the stuffs that are in my mind. My heart began to beat faster that time. I was thinking what I'm gonna do with it. I was even thinking of not going to class during the day of the oration/declamation...but or course I can't do that. It's also an absolute N-O. I was like so crazy thinking about it. I don't know what to do. Yes it's just a simple thing, but I was already like....freaking out! In my mind, I was freaking out the whole period! This always happens whenever I'm nervous or afraid..or something like that....When our english period....my heart began to beat on it's normal way.... After sometime, I think I've learn to face the truth....that I'm gonna orate/declaim!

The next day, during our english period, Ma'am Mae (our english teacher) told us to get a small piece of paper from her hand. That paper would say if we're gonna orate or declaim. I was SUPER happy when I saw the word "oration" written on the paper that I got. Or course I'm not happy with the thing that I'll have to do this...but I'm happy because at least I don't have to act or do some crazy stuffs in front of my classmates. The next day, Ma'am Mae gave us our oratorical piece that was made by one of our schoolmates, Ms. Telmo. It's a very good piece. It's simple, but it's very good. The first time Ma'am Mae read that piece in front of the class I realized that I've forgotten all of the stuffs mentioned in the piece. We are allowed to memorize some parts of the piece only, but when I tried to read the piece with some parts missing I thought...It's not good, so I decided that time that I need to memorize the whole piece. At least, I should memorize it, because I didn't plan to deliver it with feelings in front of the class.XP

I memorized it in our house....in front of the mirror standing on a chair.LOL. And at my back are my siblings watching TV, at the same time laughing at me because that time I'm delivering it with feelings and facial expression.LOL.but of course I didn't do that in front of my classmates...I'm too shy, and also nervous...>.<

I wasn't able to memorize the last paragraph of the piece so I just continued memorizing the next day while my group mates and I were waiting for our consultant in the laboratory at UP Diliman. I guess I'm consumed a lot of times explaining other stuffs regarding this oration. Well, I think we should proceed to the day I did it. Before our english period I was sure that I memorized the whole piece, but I didn't plan to deliver it the way I delivered it in front of the mirror.LOL. So I'm not expecting to have a high rating also. Besides, that time, I thought that I might forget some lines because I was too nervous. We performed at the gym. And before performing, I was once again freaking out. Well, I didn't forget any of the lines but I didn't finish the piece because we went to the next presentor already. I was glad that our teacher called the next presentor because my heart was beating abnormally again. whew~ at last! it's done!

B-U-T

Ma'am Mae told us that those who picked oration will declaim the next week. And I was once again...SUPER freaking out! I mean...This is TOTAL embarrassment! I think my heart's gonna explode! The piece that was given to us was "The Champion". That piece is hard to declaim because there isn't only one person speaking in that piece, but TWO. I already thought that time that should not look crazy..but when it's the day that we need to declaim I was freaking out not only because of the thing that I'm gonna declame but also because of my costume. I didn't bring any demon like or Satan like costume!...wahhh....It's good that Hannah lent me her black blouse..then I wore my white skirt...It's just like I'm gonna go to a church.LOL.... I didn't wear my eye glasses when I was declaiming so I can't see anyone.LOL.That's one of the ways I thought how to reduce my tension, even a little. I can't see anyone's reaction or anything so my nervousness was reduced...but the reason why my nervousness wan't completely gone is because of the fact that I can't see them... I might have done something wrong without me noticing because I can't see their reactions...LOL...but after that I was so happy that I'm done and my heart started to beat the normal way...LOL

LOL. While typing this post....I'm feeling like...nervous. I guess I remembered the way I felt when I was declaiming and orating....that's why I felt somewhat nervous while typing...LOL

Christmas Break!!!

Yes! At last It's Christmas Break already. All students are really excited with Cristmas break. This is the time when we can relax for a long time. We can relax our mind for at least two weaks. But of course, not totally relaxed. There are still things in the school that bothers us...just like our research. Well, let's not talk about that... I just want to greet every body HAPPY HOLLIDAYS!

Now, since we have a house in Maname and here inPrecious Ville...I don't know where I'll stay for the vacation. My parents are in Maname but they haven't told me where we'll celebrate our Christmas. I stayed here in Precious Ville for two days after the Christmas Party. After that I went to Maname. I don't know, I still want to do a lot of things here but I guess it's really better to have a holliday with your family that's why I went to Maname.

I brought all the things that I want/need there. I haven't satyed there for a long time...as far as I can remember it's been 8 months. The first days I was there..I was felt bored. Like, I miss my computer..I miss the dvd player (coz we brought the dvd player in Precious Ville...only vcd's in Maname)..I miss listening to my favotire songs...I miss checking out Jun Ki's cyworld....I miss watching series...I miss...a LOT of things. I felt like I wanted to go back..but I didn't...^^

The only thing that I do there is watch TV5. I watched some vcds...I watched new ones and those I've watched already coz I don't have any choice. I was able to watch noon time shows also. At that moment...I realized I haven't watched filipino tv shows for a while. Coz' when I'm at home and I'm not busy...I'll probably watch Korean movies/series and American movies/series...or surf the net or read novels (like those of Dan Brown's). I realized... I haven't watched Dyosa, Gagambino and other new filipino series.. I don't know anything about it. I just don't know...but I felt like I miss my old hobbies. Ohhhh, we're getting far away from the topic again. Well I enjoyed my stay there anyway. Eventhough I miss a lot of things.

I went back to Precious Ville to put some songs in my cd because I think I can't really live without listening to some songs that I like. Radio's definitely not enough! I think I'm gonna die without music.LOL. I got some clothes too. My Grand Father was happy when he saw me in Maname. He hadn't seen me for months there. I spend some days with my cousin who I haven't seen for months also. We really missed the days we were together.

My Christmas was just like the other years. Eat, go with my cousin, and watch movies. The Christmas party of the family was postponed and was moved on December 29, 2008. It's also like a reunion. They prepared a lot of games but I wasn't able to attend because I need to attend our practice for Sabina. I went home late so I wasn't able to be there. But it's alright because it can happen again, unlike our practice for Sabina...^^

After Cristmas I enjoyed watching movies first..because I planned to do my projects the day after that. I'm really not in the mood to do anything but I have no choice but to do thme before it's too late. Fortunately I was able to finish what I was supposed to do. I need my computer so I went back to Precious Ville again...and of course before going home I got some songs again.

With my New Year. As always, it's better than Christmas. It was so noisy and happy...EVERYWHERE...^^... There are a lot of fireworks that everyone can enjoy and there are a lot of foods. I can really feel the happy spirits of people...^^

It was January 3, 2009 when I went back to Precious Ville. I need to establish in my mind that school's gonna start again and I must accept that fact. It's exciting to go to school if you think of seeing your friends only.LOL. You know students don't feel like going back to school again after vacation. Especially for science high school students, I think. Because...like what Aizel said, we spend only 4 years in studying here but it seems to be ten years. LOL. Anyway...vacation ends at January 5, 2009 and school starts again.